This is what unconsciousness does. If you're not conscious of what games you're playing--of what you're doing, you can be doing stuff that's against your best interests or conscious choices.
The other thing to realize is that you're hurting people nad things all the time, just as a matter of course. This is a tough cookie, I haven't been able to crack it yet. What sort of impact should I have on the world? I'm already having a huge impact, just to sustain my life such as food, water, computer, energy, etc.
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