i admire your courage pyrogen.
though,dont let that stop you from continuing what youve begun
dont know if going back and apologizing is the thing to do.tho the really bad cases are exceptions.
just be with yourself for a bit.see the shadows.accept them and forgive yourself.
you are not ALL bad.and you are not ALL good.youre a bit of both.sugar n spice
if you have realized that a certain part of you needs changing it would be better to come from self acceptance rather than guilt.
because only in love can real release happen.
love yourself,for that is the only way to real change.else swinging from one extreme to another will happen.drastic measures to redeem will happen.
one is learning and releasing and accepting .thats moving on and coming closer and closer to the real you.