Thank you both for your responses.
Perhaps I have expressed myself poorly, I just don't feel I am getting the answers I need.
I am not looking to "be" something for something else whatever that might be - relaxed, happy, energetic, serious - whatever. I am just looking to feel okay being me in the presence of powerful individuals.
I am also not referring to "power" necessarily in the sense of someone at the top of a hierarchy. I mean "power" to be more being centered in one's self, accepting one's self, not hiding or changing things to please other people, and the freedom to live one's best life without fear.
I want the feelings I get while practicing or sometimes onstage such as powerful expression, joy, love, intelligence and understanding to find space in situations where my singing and I am being judged. At the moment, I throw my own "apple pie" out for fear of it bothering someone or simply not being okay in any way.
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