Why do you continue to hold onto your belifes on power? Do they help you in some way? You already admitted that they stem from you father and they hindered you from performing to your full potential. Are your beliefs on power something you agree with deep down or something you've had to accept to live with a power hungry father?
IMO you need to get rid of them but then again I'm just basing this off of your post. Anything that prevents you from doing what you love and from living intelligently in the moment is unhealthy IMO. Think back to that moment on the stage. What did that moment call for? Did the song require a full ranged powerfull voice or would it have been better conveyed with a more subtle tone? If it required the full range then by God let it out!
Take a step back, expand your awareness for a moment and think about what TRULY mattered in that moment on stage. You'll see that all that truly mattered was performing that song to the best of your abilities. That is what you were being judged on. You were not being judged on how well you could restrain your sense of power.
If it were me, I would work on trying to uproot this belief on power. Often times uprooting a belief is easier than jumping through mental hoops to get the belief to work for us and this complex society we live in.
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