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Emaaki · 03-19-2009, 12:03 PM

Thankyou all very much. i will tell you a bit about what i did, for 3 years i tried to be a very strong person, like "the best"- not the best i could be, but the best...well my image was....what I thought looked really good to others. i was a real fool. i was extremely hard on myself, like i literally tried to acheive a million goals per day because this book deluded me into thinking i could acheive anything.....okay i got where i thought i wanted, but really i lost soo much of myself, and yes today i am very strong and confident, but i hate it also because I lost a really sweet guy, and...all these changes were to please others anyway....well..i am going on a journey, its going to be a long one...reversing what i did, i might be going backwards with some things, but oh well, whatever makes me happy right.

03-19-2009, 12:03 PM	#31 (permalink)
Emaaki Member Join Date: Jan 2009 Posts: 52	Hmmm... Thankyou all very much. i will tell you a bit about what i did, for 3 years i tried to be a very strong person, like "the best"- not the best i could be, but the best...well my image was....what I thought looked really good to others. i was a real fool. i was extremely hard on myself, like i literally tried to acheive a million goals per day because this book deluded me into thinking i could acheive anything.....okay i got where i thought i wanted, but really i lost soo much of myself, and yes today i am very strong and confident, but i hate it also because I lost a really sweet guy, and...all these changes were to please others anyway....well..i am going on a journey, its going to be a long one...reversing what i did, i might be going backwards with some things, but oh well, whatever makes me happy right.