If you really wanted to kill yourself, then why did you post about it on a forum? What's the purpose of coming here just to tell us you are committing suicide?
I propose that there's a large part of you that doesn't to die, that wants to live. But a greater part of you loves the attention, the hopelessness and the pity party. I don't understand your mindset, but I understand your position. I have nothing and noone and am heavily in debt. It's not a case of having everything and losing it, I never had it to begin with. I should always be lonely, depressed and disappointed with my lot in life, according to popular opinion.
I can't really give you any advice until you discover that you actually do want to live. If you really don't want to live, and I mean *REALLY* don't want to live, then by all means, go along with it. But if you have anyone or anything in your life you would miss, or any kind of small dream you would like to fulfill, or anyone you think you would be letting down then perhaps your desire to die isn't 100%. If you don't want to die 100%, but only 50%, 80% or even 97%, then there's still a part of you that wants to live, no matter how small. It's that part that's posting on this forum, it's that small part that doubts and wonders.
It's time to ask yourself: Do you want to die 100%? If not, why not?