| | Explaining my problems
I placed millions of very high expectations on myself per day for a very long time. I forced all of these things. including forcing positive thinking and trying to never have another negative thought again, cos the book said it was possible. I was extremely hard on myself for a very long time, and i thought to get out of the mess, i should just try to reach my expectations.
mentally, i am the biggest mess you will ever find. My life is the biggest mess you will find. I am the biggest mess you will find. i hate myself with the passion. I AM EXTREMELY HATEFUL, and no, I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO EXCEPT THIS PERSON. I am complete and utter failure.
NO POSITIVE THOUGHTS WIL NEVER HELP. I am just ready to die. NOW. I AM NOT WORTH ANYTHING ANYMORE