[Farryn]

I forgot about that: I think I'd find it difficult to watch porn with my boyfriend. I believe that sexual stimulation ect should come from your partner, not strangers (again though: is that just my identity talking??) ... so I'd find it difficult.

Are some women okay with watching porn with their men?? I'm sure there are... But I wonder if it's because they are trying to please the man or if they actually enjoy watching it. I see porn as objectifying women, but maybe other women don't see it that way??

What about the fact though that a man's erect penis apparnetly can't be shown in a magazine etc... ??? Isn't that proof that it's not equal and that only women are objectified?? I almost think that both should be objectified (since it will never be corrected for women) then this would be an easier subject to deal with (for me at least)!!

The truth of it though: I don't want to be upset anymore. I want to let it go. I don't want to ask him to work on things and I don't want to have to work so hard to improve our sex life or to evalutate his. I want to let it go. It feels better to let it go even though it's scary (I came to the realization that it felt better to let it go after feeling so much joy reading the posts from Karma Police and Dharma mentioned earlier). Is it okay for me to let it go?? Or am I ignoring a possibly huge problem in our relationship??? Or a huge indication that he doesn't care about me???