I dug this out
where do i start, I feel that i too have something like this, Whenever i try to do something that will improve my life e.g. applying for a job, my head tightens up, my body starts over heating, i feel really uncomfortable, than my solution becomes to lay in my bed. Almost all things feel like this. I know its not laziness because I am still able to workout and exercise my will.
Its like I don’t have the capacity to feel real positive things, only fake short term comfort, i am still not sure what the negative core belief is i think its like "im deficient, anything i do will only make it worse and expose it, and whomever comes into contact with me will get the virus" When things i do involve other people its like im gonna hurt them even if its positive social goals or career goals.
Lately I feel as if my world is getting smaller and smaller, and im just a corpse walking around, when im in my bad my body starts shaking. I wrote half this post than went to bed for a few hours came back and finished it off.
I would like to thank seeker for his post on his blog and this thread.
Discovering a very deep inner emotional belief of “I’m deficient” « Seeker5