I think forming empowering metaphors can be very powerful in helping us deal with psychological factors going on. For example a number of years ago I was stuck in a situation. I would visualize a metaphor to help me get out of this situation - and every day while taking a shower I'd visualize being bonded in chain (which to me represented the current situation I was in) and then breaking free of my chain and then flying up to the sky in freedom (which represented where I wanted to be). Overtime, I did achieve exactly that - I broke free of the bonds I was under at the time and achieved some dramatic and amazing changes in my life. So that metaphor was very empowering, and repeating it over and over in my mind was very helpful to me, as well as motivational.
However, conversely, using disempowering metaphors can really make things hard or nearly impossible. They can keep you locked down, and feel you have no way to overcome the issues. When I saw Honey use the metaphor "gremlin", I knew that was a disempowering metaphor. A gremlin is something nice that then becomes a monster and it's a nightmare dealing with it. My way to changing it to an empowering metaphor is to think of killing it. To think of killing this gremlin in me is very empowering, and it helps me think of how I'm going to remove these factors and issues inside of me. Perhaps for Honey, it can help her too, or there may be a more empowering metaphor for her to use to talk about her life's situation and her issues so that the metaphor can empower her, instead of disempower her.
Sorry for talking about you in 3rd person honeywith4bees
. Regardless, I suggest that you find a much more empowering metaphor for you to think of dealing with your situation - one that can lead you to hope that you will eventually be rid of this problem.