Originally Posted by seeker5
That's better then spending two weeks straight distracting myself and brooding in my negative emotions until I get to the crisis point where my body is in so much pain.
You don't have to do that, that's just what I did that showed me how little emotions really have to do with my actions. I wasn't even sure what I was trying to accomplish, so the process was definitely unbalanced. But just because the process was unrefined doesn't mean that the lesson was worthless.
The lesson I learned was that emotions are not what control my actions, and therefore I have no emotional problems. Emotional problems were a scapegoat for me, a frame-up designed to prevent me from being truly responsible for my actions. As long as I assumed that emotions influenced my actions, I didn't have to admit to myself that they were fully and completely my actions. It could always be my emotional problem's fault, rather than my own responsibility. But the emotional problem was just an imaginary boogey-man.
You're right in saying that you are the one causing your emotional problems; where you slip up is in assuming that your emotional problems cause you. Your emotional problems aren't really doing anything to hold you down; you are holding you down, and then putting emotions there so that you can blame them. The emotional problems are really the illusion of problems pretending to be you. There's not actually any problem there for you to fix, or to stop fixing for that matter. The emotions don't have anything to do with what your doing, either to hold you down or lift you up.