The purpose for me is that I have a certain vision of my life that crops up each and every time that I visualize "the perfect" life. In that vision I am relaxed and at peace, surrounded by beautiful things and by my friends and my family.
In reality, I tend to get uptight and worried about perfection. I get snappy at the kids for leaving dirty dishes in the sink, I act irritated (while trying to cover it with a smile) by the kids friends making dirty shoe tracks on the kitchen floor. I invite the bf and his kids over for dinner but then silently seethe if the kids don't eat all their dinner. All of these actions act to repel people from me because they can feel my true feelings. If I remind myself to act in an attractive way, to open myself to Grace, then I can relax and remember that I don't have to be perfect, in fact shouldn't be "perfect", in order to achieve my dream life.
And having beautiful things? All my life I've only purchased the cheapest "bargain basement" stuff. I've told myself that it's because I'm not one of those "high maintenance" kind of girls, but truth be told, I think its cuz I don't think I deserve the good stuff. (My bf has always, all his life, bought the best of everything. And most of that stuff, he still has because it was quality crafted while I've probably filled a couple dumpsters with all the cheap, garbage I've purchased in my lifetime. So it makes sense in many ways.)
It helps me to have a positive thing to focus on (like Be Attractive), rather than a negative thing (like You are Not unworthy.) And for me, Peaceful and Relaxed doesn't do it as much as Attractive does. Attractive seems to have a much larger connotation. Attractive to good health, attractive to prosperity etc etc
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