I'm in the same predicament(wrong spelling I know) as you. But I come to realize.
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Buddhists teach that one should reduce the significance one places on things, but this doesn't work for me. .
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It doesn't work because ego is resisting teachings of buddhists. The ego will die once you discover that things have no significance. Ego does not want to die so it resists. It doesn't work for YOU because you identify by ego. Currently, you perceive as being ego, but you arent ego.
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I just can't stop thinking about how much I would really enjoy being close to someone.
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Again ego. Ego survives through thoughts like that. It feeds on it.
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I know that once I'm in a relationship I'll not find absolute contentment as I dream I will. Why? Because it is not within our nature to stop coveting things. I'll end up seeking something else, no doubt. True contentment needs to be found within. It doesn't exist 'out there'.
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I congratulate you for realizing that. You have began the awakening
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And I know this, yet the desire for closeness remains just as strong.
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It strong becuase you identify by ego. To disidentify, dont resist your ego. Resistance only feeds the ego. Observe the feelings of desire. Be aware of the feeling in your inner body. Once you're aware that ego is the culprit of all desires turn to suffering, the suffering will gradually cease. To be aware is to accept what is at this given moment.
Remember this: It's all ego