It sounds to me as if your discipline problem is more of a kind of rebellion against authority (read: your father). Have you expressed to your father how it is you feel? He may not even know how his behavior affects you.
I get the sense you are under a lot of pressure. Try being understanding of yourself and kind.
Perhaps it would benefit you to start taking care of what is going on inside of you (you seem hungry for this kind of thing) more by seeing a professional. I have had great success in my psychotherapy.
Good luck to you!
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