What caren said is a good idea. You wouldn't leave drugs around an addict, so why leave the checkbook in the hands of someone who is less than responsible with money.
My honest advice is, go to your wife and come clean. Then propose something along the lines of what caren laid out. It's easier to overcome stuff like this with someone at your side who loves you and is willing to help you get to a better place. That someone is your wife, but she can't fulfill that role if you don't let her in.
Good luck. I'm glad you came back to update us. Don't beat yourself up, you'll just continue the cycle. Step out of it and take the first step in a better direction: honesty.
Lots of love and peace to your situation...and you.
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