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Old 02-19-2009, 03:20 PM   #57 (permalink)
Peaceflmeadow
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I think a big part of my PD has been just how do I relate to everyone around me about it.

In the beginning, I kept it more of a secret. I let on to some things, but the majority of it has been kept to myself. There are times when I have linked an article from Steve's blog to a friend, or a family member, but I have YET to have anyone make much of a comment back. Same goes for my discussions on my growth. I usually get 'that look', the one that says 'why in the WORLD would you do that'. In the beginning, I only let on to bits of what I was doing, and I even twisted it a bit to sound more 'mainstream'. As time has gone on, I care less and less about sugarcoating what I am doing.

I think in the beginning, I didn't want to seperate myself from my friends and family. Now, if someone isn't tuned in with me, then its better they know where I stand with my beliefs so we can get that out of the way as soon as possible. Now, if you are not on the same page as I am, then I am not going to go out of my way to try and fit in.

This of course, is a step for me in the right direction. Becoming more myself, and attracting people that fit that pattern, and in turn, losing the constant need for reassurance that I am doing the right thing from outside sources.

The downside to all of this, I am still surrounded by 98% of people that do not consider self growth a worthy past time. My coworkers, my family, and my friends for the last 34 years are mostly all watching my changes with fascination, usually positive feedback, but still with a large amount of disconnect that they just cannot understand how or why I tick, and no spark in a sense they are ready to follow in any form.

The bears find me curious, amusing at times, but they have yet to realize that I was a bear once, and maybe just a fledgling eagle now, but that they could follow the same path too if they truly understood.

My next task as of late has been to surround myself with less bears if possible, which is hard for me as it feels like I am giving up on folks I really care about. Its not that dramatic of course, but I am an eternal teacher who spends most of my energy helping others, so I am struggling with this more then I probably should.
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