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Originally Posted by yintherapy  It sounds like you already *know* this is not the path for you. Re-read your post. I know that for me, I tend to post threads when I'm looking for reinforcement for a decision I already "discovered" inside myself... |
It doesn't feel good going abroid again and leave my family in pain because they don't approve of him.
Funny thing is, i have thought about it so long and I've came to the conclusion that If my parents weren't alive anymore or if I was an orphan for example, than I would probably go without hesitating. 100%. But when my parents come in the picture I start hesitating.
I even thought about it deeper and also came to the conclusion that I thought I was seeking for a good career and that when my dreams come true I will be happy, but I think I'm wrong. I think I need love more than what so ever. I still feel love for him, thats for sure, no doubt. Love is after all the most important thing in this world. This is how it feels now. I asked myself this question:
Would I be more happy in 5 years when I live my dream or would I be more happy having him still by my side? And even that is not sure. Nothing in life is sure. This is difficult. I think I will consider a medium soon. Maybe a guided meditation will help to get the answer and to find out what I really want??