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Originally Posted by seeker5  Is there a way you can help him from a distance without giving up your life and forming a romantic relationship with him again? |
Thank you for commenting!
To answer your question, I wish there was a way I could help. The only way I see now is this:
First of all, there are some little possibilities for getting him a passport via the country I live in now, but the people and laws are very strict here, and it is only possible If I have a high salary and are married to him. I don't make that lot of money and marriage is not an option because I can not get a birth certificate to get married. That is actually also quit odd. First I was frustrated because of that little obstacle stopping us/making us get nowhere, but now I think of it as a 'roadblock'. Something that is blocking me, preventing me for probably making the stupidiest mistake of my life/ or because it just isn't my life purpose helping him. Erin Pavlina used to talk about roadblocks in one of her blogs and their meaning. It made me think.
But where was I..Second option to help him is a huge money issue. I need to safe a lot of money first in case to make this work. And that option is:
If I don't want to move abroad then I got to have to make it look like i'm moving abroad. So I have to go to the municipality and ask them to remove me out of their system, I have to lie to them by saying that I'm moving abroad so I can resign at the municipality abroad. It should be all make belief in case to get him a passport/visa. We probably should get married anyway, with a lot of luck it isn't even necessary as long as he has a partner, me in this case. That are the new rules now I heard. Then I have to get an appartment abroid (think: huge monthly costs!) and even show up there often so people/neighboors won't suspect anything. I might as well just go live there which I don't want. And the most important part; I need a fake job contract abroad too. :S
This doesn't just feel right to do. Everybody probably agrees with me on this. I might even get in trouble if I would really consider doing this and somebody finds out. So I won't. Don't want to get into trouble like that.
I came to the conclusion that there are only roadblocks. Even my parents are the roadblocks! There was a time they once set me up for a choice, I had to choose between my boyfriend and them. I choose for my boyfriend, turning my back on my parents. That was actually when I moved abroad the first time.
Like I said, there is always something blocking me. Maybe I shouldn't go against these blocks???
But then again, should I watch him suffer and not interfere? Should I close my eyes for his problems and just lead my own life like he never ever were a part of mine? Sometimes I even think that his family disowned him because of me. I will never know for sure!
ps. sorry for my poor English and little mistakes here and there.
xx Mesmerize