[dgorila1]

I have to agree with Cron, TheColonel, and the others on this. You are both young and not ready to settle down, even though you think she's "the one". I've been in your shoes several times. The first time I was your age. I got over it pretty quickly due to distance since she lived 12hrs away and I had allot to think about on the drive back home after she dumped me. That was probably the best therapy that I could have had. My head was clear by the time I got home and I was ready to move on.
The second time was much worse though. I was older (late 20's) and lived with this beauty for 3 years. It started off hot and heavy (I learned that generally, if they "put out" on the first date, the relationship won't last). She was very manipulative and knew how to play men like a song, me included. I was quickly enamored, even after finding out she was married w/ 2 kids. Fast forward, she moved in with me, I became close to the kids since the real father wasn't around (this was one of her tactics...use the kids to emotionally tie the men to the relationship while also having a babysitter so she could go out and do her thing). Ended up she cheated on me at least 2 times that I can confirm, and several more I am certain but didn't have hard evidence( at least one worked side by side with me). Even through all this I was still drawn to her and "in love". We broke up/moved out and then she moved back in a few months later and it continued (I should have let it go the first time she left but as I said I was "in love"). Needless to say, I spent many a sleepless night alone while she was out working her next conquest and pulling my strings too. It took awhile since she knew the system and knew I couldn't just evict her, but I finally got her to move out and walked away from it (3 years later).
I will say that she did truely break my heart and changed the way I look at all relationships. I met my future wife soon after this and we have been together for almost 10 years now. I couldn't ask for a more loyal, loving woman. Sure she has her moods, quirks, etc as do I, but we truely respect each other and she is my soul mate. I will say that even though its been almost 10 years since the "black widow" relationship, I still think about her occassionally and feel something inside. I think its mostly me beating myself up (even after all this time) for letting her do what she did to me, but also I still haven't accepted the way she (mis)treated me. I would never treat someone I loved like that, and I guess I just can't see her side of it and why she could do such a thing to me. Its truely her nature, and now my thought is "she will get hers in the end when her time comes.....what comes around goes around".
Sorry for the novel :-) I just started releasing all the energy when I was thinking of the past and venting.
Basically dude, she is young, doesn't respect you no matter what you think, and will cheat on you again and again if you stay with her. You are her stable "fall back" guy she has when she's not on one of her passion quests with the boss or someone else. You need to break it off clean and quick like they all said and move on.....change jobs if you need to to get away from her! You have no ties and can make a cleam break. You will feel heartache for a bit, but think it through logically and sanely and you will get over her. There are millions of other women in the world.....find one that truely respects you and loves you, take it slow and get to know her, and if everything clicks take it to the next level. And for heavens sake don't think of taking your life because of her! Come on man, she just a girl! Theres a whole world out there full of exciting and fun people, places, and things for you to experience. You're young........take the world by the horns and enjoy the ride.