Thank you everyone for your support and advice. Unfortunately I've kind of left this thread behind as things have been pretty crazy for the last week but I haven't been depressed or upset until tonight. Tonight she did something that crossed my threshold of respect. For the first, and hopefully the only, time in my life I was so angry that I called her up and yelled at her just to satisfy my own emotions, which I followed up with an incredibly nasty Myspace message and blocking her. I'm not sure why I don't feel guilty for it because it was definitely a reactionary decision on my part, but I think I feel good for finally being assertive even if it wasn't the most constructive use of my emotions. Maybe I'll feel worse in the morning, I was pretty degrading to her, on the other hand I know that she won't be trying to contact me anytime soon and that will definitely be good for me.
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