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bleachjt · 01-08-2007, 11:58 PM

I’ve always been my worst critic, and I never manage to satisfy myself when I for example draw something. I used to love to draw, but I stopped because I saw that I’d never be good as the best artists, so I quit it. So today I read the “30 Days To Success” blog entry and I thought: “Wow, this is really good! I finally have a reason to draw again. I’ll just give it a 30-days-trial.” Then I set a goal for myself. One drawing each day for 30 days and then we’ll see if I continue or not.

So full of positive thoughts and energy I started to draw a portrait of the actor Zhang Ziyi. I have drawn portraits before with no real problems, some that I am even proud of. I started drawing, and after a few seconds I started to become unsure of myself and after a couple of minutes I gave up. Ok, my self-confidence got itself a knock, but let’s try something simpler I thought. So I found an anime person that I wanted to draw. Simple details, so I started to draw, but after maybe 10 minutes I gave up because I saw a failure in the near future. It just isn’t going to be good enough.

Now I’m thinking this might have been a bad idea. Maybe my self-confidence got more hurt than it should. This does bother me, I can feel it now. It shouldn’t, but it does. The perfectionist inside me killed my fun-time, my creative time.

So I need help I guess. This is my enemy, perfectionism. I need to win the war or I fear it will haunt me forever.

01-08-2007, 11:58 PM	#1 (permalink)
bleachjt Junior Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: Dublin, Ireland Posts: 16	Perfectionism – The enemy I’ve always been my worst critic, and I never manage to satisfy myself when I for example draw something. I used to love to draw, but I stopped because I saw that I’d never be good as the best artists, so I quit it. So today I read the “30 Days To Success” blog entry and I thought: “Wow, this is really good! I finally have a reason to draw again. I’ll just give it a 30-days-trial.” Then I set a goal for myself. One drawing each day for 30 days and then we’ll see if I continue or not. So full of positive thoughts and energy I started to draw a portrait of the actor Zhang Ziyi. I have drawn portraits before with no real problems, some that I am even proud of. I started drawing, and after a few seconds I started to become unsure of myself and after a couple of minutes I gave up. Ok, my self-confidence got itself a knock, but let’s try something simpler I thought. So I found an anime person that I wanted to draw. Simple details, so I started to draw, but after maybe 10 minutes I gave up because I saw a failure in the near future. It just isn’t going to be good enough. Now I’m thinking this might have been a bad idea. Maybe my self-confidence got more hurt than it should. This does bother me, I can feel it now. It shouldn’t, but it does. The perfectionist inside me killed my fun-time, my creative time. So I need help I guess. This is my enemy, perfectionism. I need to win the war or I fear it will haunt me forever.