Hi everyone,
i don`t know if anybody remembers this thread or is still interested but i thought i`d update you on my situation now.
First of all I didn`t start a therapy last year.
After 2 meetings i decided that I didn`t really needed it and since i wasn`t on any medication I could propably kick start again on my own.
That wasnt the wisest choice i guess. I certainly did fine for a while but the depression slowly went back again.
During summer i got a job in a supermarket working from 7 am - 12 am and immediately got stuck in a circle of sleeping the whole afternoon and then of course being tired every morning.
But i still was pretty motivated to make some changes which i did.
I transferred to another college (in October 08) and now live in a new city where i have my own place.
During the last months the depression slowly sneaked back. At first i didnt even realize it but after a few weeks it reached a point even heavier then last year.
Anyway, after 2 weeks of basically doing nothing but lying in bed and staring at the wall not leaving my room except for buying foods it really hit me that i cant get out of this on my own.
It took me another 2 weeks until i made to a doctor. I´m now on an SSRI (Citalopram, 20 mg) and will start a therapy.. this time for real.
So that was my update. Now that im seeing clear again im pretty shocked myself how brutal the depression got me. But i`m looking pretty confident at the future
