i had a similar experience. after years of suffering with depression and doing the 'right' thing by consulting with psychiatrists and therapists, i reached a point where i found myself standing in front of an elevator after yet another frustrating appointment, holding a rx for a medication that i had just finished telling the doctor was not helping me...
it was at exactly that point that i decided 'enough!' i crumpled up the rx and pitched it into the first trash can that i passed. i never went back. i decided then and there that it was up to me to help myself. i decided then and there that if i was ever going to be happy it was going to have to be my choice and no one else's.
that was three years ago and i haven't looked back since. i'm happier now than i have ever been. and i truly believe that it all came down to 'choice'.
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