I haven't had relationships longer than 1 month. And this one was 8 months.
I am sorry for the bad end. But I am really sorry for being lazy and degradating. Last few months I did almost nothing. And I still do almost nothing. Maybe I am the one who caused the breakup.
She said I was acting like a moron. Don't care...
Despite that I expect much more from me. I am still lazy and nerveless.
Anyway, the strangest thing is that i didn't suffer for the first few days without contacting her. But i was bothered whether i am doing the right choice and if she was hurt. But after she called me, now I have to choose what to do.
I am choosing to be free and stay friends with her if possible. I really need some fresh air and revival.
I realised that BEING INVOLVED IS JUST A CONCEPT of socially conditioned people.
What does being involved mean? Love? Sex? Intimacy?
Why not friends do all of these and just be friends. There really is no such thing as a relationship. It's all about friendship. Everything else is society's bullshit.
And by the way, breakups are good motivators for self-improvement. People often don't appreciate that.
P.S. Greeting -
Aly & AJ - Potential Breakup Song