What i will describe here has happened to me twice in my life, once when i was 22 and just las night (i'm currently 29). The first time it happened i was left with so many questions, back then i didn't have a computer or internet or anybody who could answer without thinking i was a nut case. So i just moved on and lived my life. Until last night when it happened again:
Just like the first time i was having some trouble falling asleep, when i finally did i recall dreaming about my mom and sisters and me visiting them, just a dream. After that i regained consciousness, i knew my body was in sleeping mode but i was alert. I started feeling a mild vibration on the back of my head and part of my shoulders, just then i felt i was being taken out of my body against my will. Something was vacuuming me out of it, that's how it felt and it was pulling from my head area. I started to panic, i didn't see anything or anyone, except for me and my husband in bed. I could hear my husband snores in the background, though they sound as if he was far away. As soon as i panicked i felt myself forcing me back into my body while the vacuum feeling was still trying to pull me out. When i was close to my body i tried to call my husband by his name to no avail, i couldn't control my body, i could feel it but i couldn't make it move. I tried then to get myself out of my body and go against the direction of the suction force i was feeling, i tried hard but fear finally overcame me, and all i was able to do was to think with a lot of emotion "Jesus protect me"...i thought it twice, i was terrified of such unknown situation. Then i just let go, i didn't try anything, i figured i'd finally let the suction take me, then i felt myself getting back into my body and everything stopped. Next thing i know is waking up, everything was calmed and normal, the clock was showing 2:13 am. I didn't really want to go back to sleep, i went to check on the babies and the house, to make sure everything was ok, i was feeling so exhausted i finally went back to bed.
So this morning i have been on the internet trying to find an explanation of what the heck happened and i found this link that eventually brought me to this forum: Does sleep paralysis lead to astral projection?
It explains the vibration and it is clear i was having an astral projection of some type. What i still can't understand is where did that vacuuming sensation was coming from or what was producing it and the feeling of being taken out of my physical body against my will. I can understand the fear, it's normal to fell that when facing an unfamiliar situation. But feeling my personal entity alone was also a fear factor. All i had with me was my belief in Jesus and knowing who i was.
I remember back when i was 13 and started getting into my teen years i was all into metaphysics, i read so much of that junk it was unreal! I used to try back then to experience an astral projection but i never really succeeded. By the time i was 17 i had given up on all that stuff and began reading about different religions. By 22 i had become a new Christian and still am to date. I guess the most ironic part is how much i tried during my early teens to project myself and once i gave it up it's happened twice now against my will. I wonder if now that i've grown up i should try to control the experience and make it happen to will. But i really have no clue how to do it.
I was so freaked out last night. I told my husband but he smiled dismissively and carried on getting ready for work...translation: he doesn't give a rat's butt...anyway, has anyone had any similar experience? any suggestions on what the suction feeling was about? Why did my fear escalated to freezing panic? while when i'm awake i can sontrol how i feel and my reactions? did those experiences tried somehow to awaken me to try the astral projections? why did in both occasions i had a dream about my mother and siblings before the experience? WHAT WAS that force pulling me?