Why do you assume that he wanted his book to sell better than it did? Steve has said many times that he was never after money, rather he wanted to make money as irrelevant as possible in his life. He's done that, so...
Now, you could argue that by focusing on selling more books he'd reach (and therefore help) more people, which would be a stronger motivation for him. You failed to show that greed would be a superior paradigm to that.
As an aside, greed is unnecessary if you want to make money. Making money isn't a problem. There's nothing wrong with a lightworker that wants to be a millionaire. It's only a matter of greed if money is the most important thing on that person's mind. If someone like Steve adopted that mindset it would undermine every choice he's made. Greed and altruism are entirely incompatible. Anyone that tries to use both of them will remain divided and they'll stagnate.
I don't know what relationships you've been in where resentment and jealousy added flair and passion, but it seems like you'd have to be awfully bored to need that. I find that harmonious relationships work far better- they're a lot more fun and growth is nearly effortless. Conflict on that front is too weighty and distracting. It prevents you from focusing your energy on more important stuff. When it happens, it happens, but why seek it out?
You do need to integrate the two halves of yourself, that I agree with, but I think you're confused on what that means. Embracing the shadow self means that you're completely honest. Now, that means different things in different contexts. If you're undivided it means that if you have a murderous thought you'll acknowledge it without judgement and let it go or you'll make it a conscious intention and act on it (not necessarily by killing anyone but through subtle attacks, mind games, etc). Someone following your advice would face perpetual inner conflict.
Good Kirk needs Evil Kirk because he'd be extremely naive without him. His understanding of himself and other sentient beings would be too limited to be useful. If he actually did what Evil Kirk wanted then he wouldn't be Captain Kirk.
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