Thank you all so much! I really needed someone to bring it home to me what is the point in relationships you were ''born into''. Especially because of its personal nature.
Andy, you speak so wise and clear. Thank you for this.
You are so right about it being the reflection of myself, because the things bothering me the most are those I don't like about myself.
Also, the acceptance is really based on the level of understanding, and the bigger the family, the bigger impact a misunderstanding has. Sometimes I will during an argument look for a supportive face of those only listening, and feel ostracized if I don't find one. Picking sides always felt hard to do.
Lastly, I got my answer and I'll think about it. I was concerned about leaving home while things are still like this, but trully feel I'll respect them more once I'm my own man (woman). On my first year of college I was living in other town, and that was by far the best year in our relationship. Maybe the best ones are yet to come
