On a bright sunny Sunday afternoon, many many years ago, Miia smoked pot for the very first time in her life. It was funny at first, but then suddenly she got this feeling. It was a cold, shocking feeling that came from the sudden realization that she doesn`t exist. She started crying, she had never felt anything so sad. It was horrible. No one knew her, no one remembered her. She cried and cried and cried. And then she started eating tomatoes and everything fell into place again. p.s. those were the best tomatoes she had ever eaten
Till this day (it was a looong time ago) I remember that feeling. It`s almost indescribable. IT DID NOT FEEL GOOD! You may feel that life is **** right now, but trust me, it`s better than knowing/believing you don`t exist. Try to think about positive things in your life, the people you like/love, the people who inspire you. Notice the good...someone suggested meditating, I think that is a very good idea. Get your mind empty for a while. Watch a good movie or cartoon (I watched a Japanese cartoon "Spirited Away" yesterday, it was really beautiful&interesting&fun, I suggest it
). Eat ice cream. If you live in a cold climate then go tanning, light&warmth can cure almost anything. Just force yourself to do something "positive", it will get easier and easier from there on I think. Even if you don`t believe it will help at first.