Wow, thanks for all the replys guys.
Well, I'm not really sure. I've always been interesting in things but I've never really had that much support from my mom (I realize now that it's mostly my mom that I'm frustraited at..). Whenever I'd have interest in something she would be like 'oh really? thats nice...' and that was about it. She never shared my entusaism for things so as a kid I suppose I had veered off from what my mom didnt think was interesting enough (what did I know? I was a kid right?).
Also, my mom was kind of a (for lack of a better word) prude. I never got to stay up late (bed time was 8:30 untill I was 12), never got to go out to hang out with friends for that long (I wasn't allowed out untill after 3-4ish because 'the sun is the hottest during mid day and you'd get burned if you were out then' and then i'd have to be back at 6 becuse 'it gets dark at 6 and i dont want you out then'). I dunno, to me it feels like she underestimates my abilities? Like, I can't take care of myself or something... grrr
Even now, as a university student she's always nagging about how I 'need to make the right friends, dont waste time with stupid things, focus on school because if you screw up terrible things will happen blahblahblah'.
Wow, I just ranted about my mom....
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