I'm just frustrated. I *never* say stuff like that to people. I just say, "Oh well, that's a shame, you're missing a good movie." But after the 9th rejection, it's just hard to stay positive. I know all the pickup people say "Go and get rejected from as many women as you can." That's funny because those people are strangers. But that doesn't work with your friends. You're friends aren't *supposed* to reject you.
I feel alone and friendless. In about 6 months, I will actually be alone and friendless because the people who actually would've gone with me to this movie are moving away. I don't know what to do about it. I've struggled with this for over a decade, and the only conclusion I can come up with is that there is something so fundamentally wrong with who I am that makes me completely unlikeable. Someone actually told me that once. I thought that was a terrible comment to make, considering she was supposed to be my friend, but now I wonder if she wasn't on to something.
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