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Angela · 01-19-2009, 07:07 PM

Something kind of odd happened to me last night, and I wonder if any of you have experienced this...

I had an amazingly wonderful day yesterday, jam-packed with sudden insight, intimate connection, joyful action, deeper understanding in my relationship with Danger Man, sunshine on my shoulders, and just plain fun. We went to dinner and something made me laugh, and suddenly tears were POURING down my face, like a waterfall. I wasn't "laughing till I cry" and they were not tears of joy (or sadness, either) --- I didn't feel any emotion inherently in the tears at all -- it was just like finding myself in a sudden downpour. After about 3 or 4 minutes it stopped and I was back to normal, except a little surprised.

It happened again in the car, and then once more walking to our hotel. DM just put his arms around me and comforted me until the waterworks were over, and I was fine, again, except a little bewildered. I couldn't find any unresolved emotion or really anything except for the fine, happy state of well-being that I'd been feeling all day. This morning I woke up dehydrated but fine.

I just noticed that I had mentioned to Aspiring to Clarity the other day that "I needed a good cry" and yesterday I wished Rose of Cairo so many blessings for her birthday that it would "practically bring tears to her eyes." Now, I'm thinking that I programmed my subconscious mind with these remarks -- that I was unconsciously recognizing a need to do a little purge, and my brilliant subconscious just used those little suggestions to build in a nice, "good" cry. I didn't and don't have any conscious compulsion to offload any negative emotion, but I did go through some emotional trauma recently that maybe hadn't resolved itself, and after having a really fruitful talk with DM, my body was ready to let loose the torrents and just shiver out the residual of the trauma. It was weird, but fun.

Have you ever just had a crying jag like this, where it felt like your body was just handling something for you?

01-19-2009, 07:07 PM	#1 (permalink)
Angela Banned Join Date: Nov 2006 Posts: 22,520	Automatic Brain Wash Something kind of odd happened to me last night, and I wonder if any of you have experienced this... I had an amazingly wonderful day yesterday, jam-packed with sudden insight, intimate connection, joyful action, deeper understanding in my relationship with Danger Man, sunshine on my shoulders, and just plain fun. We went to dinner and something made me laugh, and suddenly tears were POURING down my face, like a waterfall. I wasn't "laughing till I cry" and they were not tears of joy (or sadness, either) --- I didn't feel any emotion inherently in the tears at all -- it was just like finding myself in a sudden downpour. After about 3 or 4 minutes it stopped and I was back to normal, except a little surprised. It happened again in the car, and then once more walking to our hotel. DM just put his arms around me and comforted me until the waterworks were over, and I was fine, again, except a little bewildered. I couldn't find any unresolved emotion or really anything except for the fine, happy state of well-being that I'd been feeling all day. This morning I woke up dehydrated but fine. I just noticed that I had mentioned to Aspiring to Clarity the other day that "I needed a good cry" and yesterday I wished Rose of Cairo so many blessings for her birthday that it would "practically bring tears to her eyes." Now, I'm thinking that I programmed my subconscious mind with these remarks -- that I was unconsciously recognizing a need to do a little purge, and my brilliant subconscious just used those little suggestions to build in a nice, "good" cry. I didn't and don't have any conscious compulsion to offload any negative emotion, but I did go through some emotional trauma recently that maybe hadn't resolved itself, and after having a really fruitful talk with DM, my body was ready to let loose the torrents and just shiver out the residual of the trauma. It was weird, but fun. Have you ever just had a crying jag like this, where it felt like your body was just handling something for you?