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Originally Posted by Cristal Lilly  first you said you just wanted to be honest, to apologise for your mistakes and thank her for the lessons.
now you say you want some butter to break the ice, that you want an opener. an opener implies you actually want to have some sort of relationship with this girl again. and with how you thought everyone uses/you want to use butter 'to make things go smoother' implied you think this apology is the butter, a.k.a. a tool or means to get something else you really want. |
I think you misunderstood or you are putting words into my mouth.
I want to be honest with her, and whatever relationship I might have with
her in future (whether romantic or just friends; and my aim would be to remain at least
good friends), I am simply quite sure that the first words, the first impression after all this time apart... will count a lot.
What I am saying is:
before being able to apologize and talk openly and honestly, I need a tool to get her to
listen to me. According to the way she has behaved so far, I fear that whatever I say she might just delete it from her attention field and avoid all my words with full indifference.
I need to get past that barrier in order to be able to talk to her and apologize.