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SkyLy · 01-14-2009, 04:32 PM

Hello again,
my name's Benjamin, i'm 16 years old and i live in France .
// care, 1/2 of my life is written down here, this may not be interestant
I've stumbled upon Steve Pavlina's website 3-4 weeks ago . I sometimes looked for some advice on personnal developement website or forum, but didn't find much consistent, and lately my last reason to live was to find a way to get out of the hole i had digged . To say that when i found Steve's website, it was like a bible to me . Almost everything is written down in his book and blog, and now the hard part is to apply everything, but for me i've first to understand the whole book :

for example when Steve writes that we're already linked with everyone, to imagine this bond . How to "use" this ? I feel that everything would be easier with such a state of mind, but how to live like this ?
Shall i conciously imagine such bonds day after day in order to get it in my incoucious ? ( Thanks in advance if someone answers

)

For my actual "personality" and else, i'm among the worst a human can be, even if not, i'm sure i'm not so far from it . ( it's not negative thinking, i just exagerate the fact i can do much more than i now do ^^ ) I'm experiencing a lack of will, the one when your arm feels heavy while class lessons and you become full or energy when you got out of the class room . My life is filled with desires, but i never took action to make one . This is how i live since i'm born, changing my hobbies once a week . ( maybe not so much

)

I'm looking for assistance by registering here, but i don't know how to not make my registering a unique-direction "relationship", since i read about 7 books in my whole life, didn't watch TV during my childhood and didn't do any activity other than playing video games and surfing on the web . I won't be able to help anyone here on the board .

One more thing : about my level of conciousness, i'm ~guild-shame, but i never looked onto suicide and i'll never look onto it .

ahem, this isn't an autobriography, i think i've already written too much ... thank you if you've read this,
See ya .

01-14-2009, 04:32 PM	#1 (permalink)
SkyLy Junior Member Join Date: Jan 2009 Posts: 10	Hello, it's a bit dark down there .. in my soul . Hello again, my name's Benjamin, i'm 16 years old and i live in France . // care, 1/2 of my life is written down here, this may not be interestant I've stumbled upon Steve Pavlina's website 3-4 weeks ago . I sometimes looked for some advice on personnal developement website or forum, but didn't find much consistent, and lately my last reason to live was to find a way to get out of the hole i had digged . To say that when i found Steve's website, it was like a bible to me . Almost everything is written down in his book and blog, and now the hard part is to apply everything, but for me i've first to understand the whole book : for example when Steve writes that we're already linked with everyone, to imagine this bond . How to "use" this ? I feel that everything would be easier with such a state of mind, but how to live like this ? Shall i conciously imagine such bonds day after day in order to get it in my incoucious ? ( Thanks in advance if someone answers ) For my actual "personality" and else, i'm among the worst a human can be, even if not, i'm sure i'm not so far from it . ( it's not negative thinking, i just exagerate the fact i can do much more than i now do ^^ ) I'm experiencing a lack of will, the one when your arm feels heavy while class lessons and you become full or energy when you got out of the class room . My life is filled with desires, but i never took action to make one . This is how i live since i'm born, changing my hobbies once a week . ( maybe not so much ) I'm looking for assistance by registering here, but i don't know how to not make my registering a unique-direction "relationship", since i read about 7 books in my whole life, didn't watch TV during my childhood and didn't do any activity other than playing video games and surfing on the web . I won't be able to help anyone here on the board . One more thing : about my level of conciousness, i'm ~guild-shame, but i never looked onto suicide and i'll never look onto it . ahem, this isn't an autobriography, i think i've already written too much ... thank you if you've read this, See ya . Last edited by SkyLy; 01-14-2009 at 04:37 PM.