Hi, again. I'm still alive. Thanks for all supporting replies!
The last couple of days has been a nightmare for me. I didn't know I had so many tears (have never really cried).... and still cannot sleep. I see her at work... and it keeps getting worse, every time I see her.
I can't quit my job right now, cuz I need the money, and other job offers will be available probably after a month or two (it's always the same... after XMas holidays job offers are really not a great amount). And in this time I'll have to see her, and eventually The Boss.
I've been trying to surround myself with friends every single day. I'm afraid that if I'm left alone for more than an hour, some suicidal ideas come to my mind. Really cannot imagine myself living without her. Everything else like loving another, having my life start all over again - this seems like a compromise with myself and my beliefs. Because I felt her like the one for me. She really was. I can start.... but it won't be me. Or it will be me - but with something broken inside. My heart....
Thanks, guys and girls!
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