Originally Posted by Wombels
I'm new here, and this is my first comment, hope it might be of use one way or another, :-)
Please know, Iím not sure what your understanding might be of a final leap, but from what I read, you shouldnít focus on that either.
There are few reasons why you are dealing with panic attacks.
Whenever your conscious awareness expands while bringing you this feel of Oneness and unity, it is important to ďawaitĒ the next level to present itself, to focus upon it like some kind of a goal is not advised.
In order to allow a shift in consciousness to manifest itself, it is important to understand one needs to let go of one in order to accept the other: REALITY
The fear is when you find yourself lingering in between both, the reality of your daily life and the unknown one knocking at your ego.
Your ego is not happy with this, therefore whenever you allow your ego to control your inner, mind and thoughts, to freak out will be following out of that.
So, when not letting go, your mind and ego will take over and fill you with this ice cold sensations of panic.
A way to deal with this fear is to drain yourself physically, not in terms of sports or labor, but rather by cutting down your sleep in order to become in need of rest, I assume you are not sleeping very well either.
To seek out solitude is another important need in order to get a smooth shift going.
In order to deal with the fear there is a need to explore were its rooted within YOU and confront it.
Each time you find yourself in between both, you need to (now) realize, there is no logic to be found in whatever you might be experiencing regardless of what manifestation might present itself upon the path you are walking.
So, itís ok if sensations and thoughts of YOU becoming crazy are filling your thoughts!
You will have to trust yourself in understanding whenever you shift and expand in awareness, ALL you regarded as such craziness will become crystal clear while make all sense in the world, ONLY to you that is.
Why? Because you will for the first time in your life start to see were others remain blind!
So, there is no use to talk, share and express your emotions in your surroundings, because it will not be understood anyhow, and you will become subjected to ridicule when doing so.
Whenever you are near to shift, try to remain calm and let yourself go with the flow of what is taking place, donít try to think of what is taking place, just become and let yourself glide by the feel of it!
From what I have written down here, only use what you are willing to accept.