Hey Lilly,
I think you hit the nail on the head when you said it's anger at them not accepting you. I'd also like to ask could you accept and love them for all they are, instead of all you'd like them to be?
I actually started out with my coach working on improving my relationship with my family. I gained a lot from just letting them live their own lives and letting them be, just be. My relationship with them is stronger but that's not to say it's ideal.
I was thinking about this over the Christmas period. Relationships are set early on, how often you see each other, what you discuss, where the boundaries are, etc etc. The problem I see with families, particularly parents to children, is their initial relationship with you was to shield you and nurture you completely.
Over time, you grew up and became an adult, just like them. But they still have the relationship of a protector over you. Since you are doing stuff they don't understand, biologically the unknown is feared, so they are suspicious and judgemental.
I know this is over simplified but hopefully it will serve to prove the point, that the relationship between family members is difficult because you're bound by blood yet you keep on becoming new people throughout your lives, it's tricky.
Lots of love,
Colm
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