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Originally Posted by Angela  How about your first response: PASSION. Not passion "about something", but rather just Passion as a complete and whole quality in your life. |
Ohhh!!! This is very interesting. I always thought I need something to be passionate about if I want to feel passionate about something. But you are right, I can feel very passionate for no particular reason. People often say I'm a passionate person, so I can be passionate with no object for my passion, right?
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That is: BEING Passion. What would your life be like if you being passion? Would that inspire you? Do any inspired actions occur to you?
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Of course it inspires me! I don't know yet what my life would be like if I were being passion, I need to think about it some more. Same for inspired actions, I need to let them show up on their own, it's too new now. But I really like the idea!
Thanks Angela. I'll meditate and journal about being passion.
One idea I have now is that if I were being passion, I'd write much more on my blog. I often have spontaneous ideas "oohhh I'd love to write about xyz on my blog!" and I already have plenty of ideas popping into my mind. But then I hold myself back, because I need to do this and this and that first. And when I'm done with this and this and that, the inspiration for writing about xyz is dead, and I end up not writing anything. Sometimes I even procrastinate on this and this and that because I resent having to do it instead of writing about xyz. As a result I do nothing at all.
I designed a great plan for the career area, but it doesn't work. I just cannot write on topic T today just because I decided that today I would write about topic T. That's not how things work, self-discipline or not.
Today I even ended up watching Sex and the City on TV instead of working just because I was pissed about having to work. I mean, I never watch TV! And Sex and the City is about the dumbest thing I have ever seen! But everything was better than to do what was on the plan.
About one year ago I already had the exact same problem and you Angela suggested I work through the artist's way. You said I'm an artist and artistic inspiration hates to be constricted by self-discipline. Or something like that. Or at least that's how I (conveniently!) remember it.
I still don't believe I am an artist. It seems that I'm at the exact same place I already was one year ago, when I was wondering what to do and having doubts about writing etc.
Oh my, I'm sorry. It feels like I'm crying for help and complaining all the time on these boards at the moment. I'm feeling lost and confused.