Hi all,
I have completely changed my mind again. I won't focus on self-discipline in 2009.
I don't know what I'm going to focus on. Maybe on feeling good?
I really hate self-discipline. It makes me feel very bad. I feel like a slave. Knowing how low my self-discipline is, I did set very easy goals. Just three minutes of meditation, just 30 minutes of walking, etc. I do much more than that already. Just not every day. But even though I'm already able to do it, and I usually already do it quite often... when I decide to do it every day, I don't do it at all anymore! I hate those things I set as a daily goal. I can't stand doing them!
Every time I really, really wanted or loved something, in the past, I always did it or got it. No need for self-discipline for that! The problem is just that maybe I don't want what I think I want that badly. Or when I don't feel good, I don't work towards my goals anymore.
Instead of learning how to work in spite of not really wanting it or in spite of not feeling good, why not figure out what I truly truly want, and learn how to feel better?
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