Originally Posted by judge45
The whole concept of subjective reality is so mind bending to me, but at it's core it makes so much sense to me.
I've always wondered why I was me, how out of 6 billion people I was the only 'me'
I know! I used to wonder, "How come I was born as me, and not one of a billion Chinese guys?"
I have a few questions I'd like to hear opininons on.
1. If SR is real, then my children who I love dearly are just extensions of myself. I had a lot of trouble even trying to accept SR as it means my kids are not their own beings. which saddens me.
Your kids are as much their own beings as you are. You are connected with them, but not a spiritual "parent" of them. We are all spiritual "children" of the One Universal Consciousness, and are all traveling a very long journey towards total awareness and realization of that Truth.
2. If SR is to be accepted, then I'm totally alone and that also makes me feel sad.
Correction. God WAS alone, but He/She/All-That-Is created (or separated into) all of us so as to no longer be alone. We all have each other now, and if God is actually still sitting alone atop this infinite pyramid, He's still got all of us for company. Don't be sad. Ignorance is bliss!
I sometimes imagine that all existence is the result of a lonely God having a Cosmic case of Multiple Personality Disorder.
I always thought that we were all from God or the source, but we all at least were specific beings with our own collective but seperable consciousness.
Sounds pretty close to me. I may be a "sub-personality" of my higher self, but I'm still a unique individual with self-awareness of my own. And if when I die I awaken to my higher self, I will feel much greater, not less. This personality typing at this keyboard will still remain within my memory as an experience I had that had value towards my spiritual evolution. The major difference will be that I will suddenly realize that "this DVD is over" and I'll file it away on a shelf with my ever-growing collection of "lives lived" DVDs. It just won't be the "movie" I'm focusing on anymore. And while I'm playing the major character in this current movie, I'm so involved in the illusion that I've tuned out to the reality that I've starred in other movies. Works best that way.
There was an episode of STAR TREK: THE NEXT GENERATION where a duplicate Commander Riker is discovered stranded alone on a planet. He believes himself to be the only Riker, and both Rikers are astonished to discover they have a duplicate. The duplicate was created by a transporter malfunction after the Enterprise departed 8 years prior. The duplicate had all the memories of the original, and understandably assumed he was the one and only Riker who had been left behind.
However, living out 8 years as a castaway caused Riker #2 to develop his own unique and distinct personality since the malfunction, and nobody but the original Riker treated him as any less than a valid and separate consciousness.
My point is that although we all eminate from the same source, our unique and individual experiences change us from being the same to being genuinely separate personalities from each other. And while we are indeed all connected to each other and every other thing through the Universal Consciousness, we are at the same time as uniquely ourselves as it's possible to be. No two snowflakes are exactly alike, and no two lives can be lived exactly the same. That is your claim to individual personality in the universe, and not even God can take that away from you. Nor from your children.
Hope this helps...