I find my family (parents and siblings) to be the only people in the world who I judge, dislike their actions, and the only people in whose presence I become annoyed, angry, sad... you name it.
And while I appreciate them as my 'masters' when it comes to pointing where I'm weak, I can't help thinking I better give up trying to be nice with them and just go about my bussiness.
Does any of you know if it's neccesary to be in a good relationship with your family to be at peace? Anyone regrets for not having a good one?
I'm asking because this year I'm working on moving out, and I KNOW I'll be in a much better mood and peace of mind when I'm far from seeing their daily actions. Sometimes it seemes to me they represent all I don't want to be (I'm the youngest of four children). My lifestyle puzzles them, they hardly understand my talking, and I don't know if I should even try to explain them.
I suppose my anger is actually anger for me not accepting what they do with their lives, an anger towards myself, but feeling it only in one of their's presence, I'd rather give up on heartful relationship and be nice to them even if it hurts me that they judge me. (yeah, we all jugde around here
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P.S. If any one has an idea for a poll on this subject, please be my guest!
Thank you for listening to me
