Originally Posted by The Cloud
There are times when I am feeling/doing/experiencing a sense releasing, only to become distracted by what I can only describe as panic. I get a tremendous sense of foreboding, my breathing becomes quick and shallow, and I get a hot prickly sensation that I discovered after a little research is associated with panic attacks. The novelty of this sensation becomes distracting at the time, but I'm convinced that when I finally become able to let go of it that there will be something final behind it. After these episodes, things become clearer. Sights and sounds somehow become more real, more pure. Relationships become more meaningful and I just get a sense of what I can only call love from the smallest things.
This is so similar to what I've been experiencing! The situations in which it has happened to me, has also been ones in which I consciously try to let go. I've also had this strong sense of something breaking, of a tremendous energy building up to be released. However, I haven't yet had the courage to take the leap into this unknown, fully letting go of control.
I guess the one way to find out what it's all about, is to dive in, however scary.