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So here is my dillema.....

Currently i have been seeing this one guy since summertime and we have had a lot of ups and lots of downs. I enjoy being around him and his company but his current situation is really affecting my life. When I first met him he was renting a room with a couple other guys. But when he lost his job, and was not able to pay rent anymore he was obviously kicked out. And since then he has not had a place to stay. He is unable to go home with his father because his step mother does not want him to stay there. So he has been sleeping outside or in motel rooms (that i purchase). We fight almost every other day, because of money issues and stress. He has a job now again, but has not reached his goal so he can afford apartment rent and deposit. I want to leave him, but I don't want to leave him all alone. We are kind of loners, and he would be all alone. And I do care about him and love him, but its so hard. And my family (grandparents, who i stay with) do not know what is going on at all or what I have been dealing with. Some nights I have to spend the night because my bf is so lonely and depressed and he kind of convinces me into staying. And my grandparents can not stand it. They hate when I spend the night, or am out at all. They are very over protective and religious. They just think I am a totally different person now. I don't want to hurt my grandparents but I don't want to leave someone who needs me out in the cold and alone. It was very hard on xmas when my bf was alone and in the rain outside and i had to leave my family on xmas to get him and into a room so he could be at least safe and warm.

i don't know what to do. I am so confused on what I should do. We had a huge fight yesterday about the future and how to work things out. I would like to get an apartment with him but i'm scared to do that and he is not able to keep with the rent payments. i think he will be able to but who knows... i love him, i enjoy being around him much, he makes me laugh lots....but i'm hurting my family alot because they want me home and to be okay. not sure what to do, or where this will go if it keeps on going this way. i don't want anything bad to happen to him though and it will be my fault. how did i get mixed up in this situation...please wait 1 second(s) for an uncompressed image, or press Ctrl+F5 for original quality page