happy new year people. well here i go.
i have been having trouble finding what I want to do with my life (work, career, making money, my "purpose"). Last summer I decided since I know a lot about graphic design and web design that I would pursue starting my own web design business. But boy, is it hard to do....I thought I knew something, and there's so much i'm so unaware of such as the CSS codes (so many....), how to operate abobe dreamweaver (edit website)...i'm just lost. I took an online class for photoshop but I still have so many more classes to go, to gain the information I need to be an efficient web designer. So from summer til now, I have been trying to develop this business site, and found a person on craigslist to help me with some of the coding. but he scammed me, i found out he was not in california but in canada and threatened to call the police if i did not pay him. well i western union'ed the money and received nothing back from him. i got scammed. so now i'm back at square one.
I read on steve pavlina's site to NOT GET A JOB, and pursue something else that brings value to people. I have thinking and thinking, praying, reflecting, reading books on what I am suppose to do with my life to earn some money. I just want to be SOMEBODY, and make a difference in this world (a tiny one if possible). I think the web design biz would be a good fit for me but I don't think I have the skills or passion for it. I don't have any passions for anything really. I don't know what to do. Its so hard to get a job too. I look on craigslist, its all scams or they are not interested. I go to a petco or target and they say fill out application and we will call ya. It's just so hard and discouraging. I would go back and take some course to complete my G.E. requirement but what is the point of going if I keep on messing up every single time.
I just do not know where to go next, or what to do. I want to work, but can't get work. I want to have my own biz, but don't know what to pursue. I just want to be somebody like all of you who are pursuing their passions. I don't want to be broke either. My bf and I fight constantly because we never have any money to buy something when we are out and hungry or go to a movie. We can't do anything, but hang out at home. sigh.
Any help? Suggestions? I just want to be something, if not great, just somebody so I can be content and comfortable. My passions are art, graphic design (photoshop), poetry, animals (dogs [i had an idea for a dog grooming business

]]), screen play writing (i would like to get better and perfect the craft more), personal development, philosophy, and spirtituality. If you can, please help me out.