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Rose of Cairo · 01-03-2009, 04:46 AM

My personality changed during the year 2008. One year ago, I was very empathic and sensitive. I not only could feel how others felt, I also immediately felt what their weak points were and carefully avoided pushing their buttons. I didn't do it intentionally, it was just natural to me. My adaptability was high.

Now I'm not like this anymore. I'm still sensitive and empathic enough to know how others feel, but it doesn't stir me up emotionally the way it used to anymore. I also don't avoid other people's weak spots anymore. I still do notice them, but I refuse to consider it.

As a result, I can be perceived as being harsh.Today my beloved friend seeker5 didn't like something I wrote to him (we were chatting) and I simply replied "Well, your ego will have to suffer it." He expected me to be more compassionate, as what we were talking about was a "sensitive" topic for him, but I replied "I don't owe it to anybody to be particularly careful just because they have some issues" (or something like that, I forgot the exact wording).

We talked about my change. Seeker is all about being loving and deeply connected. He sees this evolution of mine as being something negative. He says people won't feel safe to open up to me anymore, and this will prevent true intimacy. He says he's not comfortable with being vulnerable in front of me anymore. There's like a wall between us now.

I'm feeling very sad right now. Looks like we don't resonate with each other anymore the way we used to. He's not the only one. Several of my old friends don't like how I have changed.

I'm used to having friends leave my life (and others appear) every time I make some important decisions. I lost a whole bunch of friends when I quit smoking, and my very best friend left when I decided to take 100% responsibility for my life. When people go too different paths, they just have to part ways. I'm fine with that. On a deeper level, we're still all connected.

But I'm so sad, right now.

Edit: I realize I don't know what I'm asking for. Maybe a hug?

Edit2: And one for Seeker too?

01-03-2009, 04:46 AM	#1 (permalink)
Rose of Cairo Family Member Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: France -> Germany -> France -> Brazil Posts: 3,430	I'm becoming insensitive My personality changed during the year 2008. One year ago, I was very empathic and sensitive. I not only could feel how others felt, I also immediately felt what their weak points were and carefully avoided pushing their buttons. I didn't do it intentionally, it was just natural to me. My adaptability was high. Now I'm not like this anymore. I'm still sensitive and empathic enough to know how others feel, but it doesn't stir me up emotionally the way it used to anymore. I also don't avoid other people's weak spots anymore. I still do notice them, but I refuse to consider it. As a result, I can be perceived as being harsh.Today my beloved friend seeker5 didn't like something I wrote to him (we were chatting) and I simply replied "Well, your ego will have to suffer it." He expected me to be more compassionate, as what we were talking about was a "sensitive" topic for him, but I replied "I don't owe it to anybody to be particularly careful just because they have some issues" (or something like that, I forgot the exact wording). We talked about my change. Seeker is all about being loving and deeply connected. He sees this evolution of mine as being something negative. He says people won't feel safe to open up to me anymore, and this will prevent true intimacy. He says he's not comfortable with being vulnerable in front of me anymore. There's like a wall between us now. I'm feeling very sad right now. Looks like we don't resonate with each other anymore the way we used to. He's not the only one. Several of my old friends don't like how I have changed. I'm used to having friends leave my life (and others appear) every time I make some important decisions. I lost a whole bunch of friends when I quit smoking, and my very best friend left when I decided to take 100% responsibility for my life. When people go too different paths, they just have to part ways. I'm fine with that. On a deeper level, we're still all connected. But I'm so sad, right now. Edit: I realize I don't know what I'm asking for. Maybe a hug? Edit2: And one for Seeker too? Last edited by Rose of Cairo; 01-03-2009 at 05:10 AM.