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Boy, Steve, you sure know how to knock the holiday fog from one's brain!
I find it...interesting...that you're moving in this direction.
As I've gotten older, I've realized that I am very strongly wired towards Honesty. (One reason I no longer work, or am interested in working, in the legal field.) I don't know if you have ever read any of the Recluse novels but it's kind of like that; I can feel physically ill if I believe that I have done something dishonest or dishonorable. When I was less aligned with my deep need for honesty in earlier relationships, I would break up with my current boyfriend so that I could enjoy myself without feeling badly about it - or that I was cheating.
When Chris and I were intellectually thrashing out the possibilities for our marriage, I told him that for me cheating is a huge 'no'. So much so that I would rather he come to me upfront and let me know if he is interested in another woman. (And vice versa.) At that point we could revisit and evaluate our needs.
So far neither Chris nor I have expressed the need to romantically connect with anyone else.
I do understand your moving towards a more Heinlein-esque relationship, but I would hope that this is a journey you are taking together - fully together - instead of your moving apart. Sometimes our wants craft our logic, and the more persuasive among us can do what we want with impugnity.
It is my sincerest hope that you are moving on this path from a place of deep honesty with yourself. And, selfishly, I hope you continue to share your journey because I am utterly fascinated with it.
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