Originally Posted by CroMagna
Do you like keeping your distance?
I must. Or there must be some
benefit for it but I don't know what. Any ideas? But on the contrary, I think I crave closeness. Or hell, maybe I don't. I'm not even sure.
In fact, I'm not sure what I want. I have a hard time deciding what it is I want. It's like my motivations are so clouded by other factors; I think I mostly do things for reasons other than because I want to. I think I'm starting to live my own path through life as of late. It's just frustrating that I am always on eggshells when I'm around other people. I want company & intimacy but always think I have to be absolutely perfect around people so as not to make them upset or do anything wrong. In doing this I lose track of myself. Like I just mentioned, I'm just now starting to pay attention to myself & what I want in life. It's frustrating, really.
Again, does anybody identify w/ this or have any advice??
...thx again for all the support- it means a lot.