I have a friend who wants to kill himself he feels so alone. I also had a friend who did kill himself he felt so alone. i understand loneliness too and the desire to be done with it. What helped me though was that when i thought long and hard about it i realised that i could actually do something about it myself. When i meet someone else who is suffering i see that they are reaching out for help, maybe a hand to hold. When i meet a cold and homeless person on the street i get down to be near them and make conscious contact with them in the hope that if even for a moment i will meet them in their loneliness and let them know that i care for them. What i realised is that if i can do that for someone else i could probably do it for myself too.
Thats how i beat my loneliness. i started to take myself seriously. You are not lying. You are telling the truth. You feel lonely and it is painfull. Why hurt yourself even more? Why use even elastic bands on your skin? Have compassion on yourself. When you want to hurt yourself pray rather for yourself. Every time.Stroke your soft skin rather than harm it. We are looking for love and acceptance. Let your own hands lead the way.Give yourself what you are in need of. Let the healer within you embrace the victim and raise him up to a new life. You can do it. In the end only you can do it.
Take a walk downtown and see all the other lonely people out there. Reach out to someone else. We all need love. Giving it is a sure way of dispelling any cloud that darkens our day or night and later on remember what you have done. Really remember that when you were so low rather than wallowing in your own self pity you went out and helped someone else. This might be the turning point in your life, dear friend. I pray that it is and i for one wish you all the very best that Christmas can bring you and a year ahead that lets you discover through the overcoming of this pain a brighter future one where you give out what you want to receive.Dark brooding thought generate a dark brooding life. Standing up to them generates the courage we need to face life, and do something bigger on the planet while we have the privelige of being on it. Believe me. Ive been there.
The past is history. The futures a mystery. You build the bridge between both by your deliberate attitude to the present moment.
Its your Christmas present to yourself how it turns out and thats what you will give to others. Ponder that in your heart. Give yourself the sort of Christmas you always dreamed about.
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