[phantom3165]

I am sorry you feel alone, but to deny your own self worth based on emotional pain from rejection is a path that leads to nothing but a wasted life. I see so many people hurting because another won't give them the approval or acknowledgment they think they deserve. It is nice for others to recognize our accomplishments and to express love towards us if they feel it, but to expect it is just silly. Instead find out who you really are to you, since the only one who can ever really approve of you is you. Learn how to love yourself and stop seeking fulfillment externally. If you always look outside yourself for approval and acceptance you will always be disappointed. The world is the playground of form and is transient by nature. Everybody you have ever laid eyes on will die one day as well as every building and structure. Civilizations will rise and fall with all of their ideologies lost in the sands of time. This is the way of form accept it and you will realize the road towards freedom. The ancient Greek philosophers expressed and idea so simple yet so profound. It was simply this," As Above, So Below". What did this mean? What did the Italian philosopher mean when he said, Know Thyself? These are very simple statements and yet they are the secrets of the universe and pointers towards something that I can sink my teeth into and forget this childish wanting and unrealistic demand that the world of form provide me self approval. Where is it written that everybody must adore me and boost my ego whenever I feel down? What are my parents real roles in my life?
Again, I wish no shame or guilt as we all require this at some point in our lives, but some day you have to grow up and take responsibility for your own life and the experiences you create in it. If you truly wish to be empowered Then stop feeling sorry for yourself and take all that extra emotional energy and put it to some good use by discovering a new world, you! As above so Below is the idea of studying the universe to understand myself and to study myself so I can understand the universe. That can take several lifetimes if you are brave enough to look in those places where only your reflection gazes back at you. To know myself is to realize who I am beyond form and to understand my true purpose.
You may think I am being glib with you or that I am missing your point in why you are soo hurt and upset. I am not. I too am sitting here alone for Christmas and have my own stories to tell, but that is where our similarity ends, because I realize that that is just what it is, the little story of me, and how unfair it all was. Remember what this time is supposed to be about and what this man Jesus did for all of us. You are a unique and wonderful being in your own right and only you can truly appreciate that and only you can stand on your own two feet. Rise up and love yourself enough to live your life instead of your life living you. Instead of dwelling on all you lack, relish in the things you have. If you don't have much then you have less to worry about. The point being, you make life what it is not the other way around. If you think it's horrible and depressing then that is what life will provide you in quantity. If you take some responsibility for your negative attitudes and thoughts and train your mind and emotions to find the good in any situation, you will see that life bends to your desire and it will get better and better until you find it easy to create abundance and happiness. If it is true that we are all created in God's image then that means each one of us is God and the only difference is that of scale and of course, your desire to be more like Him. Learn how to live in alignment with the universe and you will be a man to be reckoned with and the funny thing, is you won't even care or need others to tell you so.

Standing in front of yourself and asking "Who am I?" is the greatest and most powerful question you can ever ask. I hope you will take the journey and realize it is the destination!!!

Carpe Diem!