[Larrious]

I did the 16 hour video game stint for a bit. with the well known WoWcrack.
I guessed my motivation for that would be similar to WayToTwilight. I dun just study in my University. I'm also working with an insurance company over here part-time.
And i kinda found turning my attention to games to be an easy way to distract myself from all troubles and things which i had to do.(read: no courage)
I din know it at the time but yea tat's the truth looking back.
The thing was self-development had always been something i enjoyed immensely deep down inside. Sure i played a lot of games, but i also had quite a bit of books on self-help etc etc. Felt that deep inside, i wasn't good enough for anything or couldn't measure up to anybody and therefore i need to improve myself.

I ticked both pride and neutrality. Pride being the dominant conscious level. Correct me please if i'm wrong. I'm still pretty much into one-up-manship, even though i don't say it loud often now. Its a culture kind of thing i forgot who mentioned it earlier. Its like when i'm reading the forums, articles i can move into neutrality for a bit. When i get exposed to the "real" world i slip back. sometimes further than pride. though the period is noticeably shorter than when i was just mindlessly playing games.

Oh, btw if you're reading this steve. I absolutely appreciate your work and i tink wat u said about having to be at a certain level of consciousness/awareness before u can control wat you think makes perfect sense. Everybody else says be positive. blah blah. but i tink u got the real point there.