You're right I am dependent right now. But it's ok, I have not always been this way and I'll grow out of it. As for me calling him an idiot, I was mostly reffering to the man who are sugar daddies, the kind of guys that would give money in exchange of sex of compagny without really caring about the woman. I wasn't very clear about this though and did not really separate the sugar daddy issue from mine, cause I though it was the same thing when it's not.
I'd like to clarify that I didn't ask the guy for anything. He offers me what he sees I need. It's why I felt so wrong and afraid to open up, cause the more I did, the more he was caring and offering and I was frightened to recieve and be taking advantage of him.
I understand that most women don't want to be dependent and have the right to. I am dependent now and hey I guess I also have the right to.
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